live it to the fullest.

Saturday, September 01, 2007

Happy Teacher's Day to all Teachers!

Our day to remind ourselves why we're teachers and to remind ourselves that it's all worth it! The kids are worth it.

Anyhow, just got back from Batam. Went with colleagues and Lydi. Was a great short trip. Left school yesterday. Didn't shop much. Only went to Nagoya for an hour and then we were eating seafood at Golden Prawn. Good food but paying up was a killer. Wat with the big denominations that they're using. Wahahaha...I felt so incompetent to count. In the end we had the lady count for us..Why can't they jsut make our lives easier by using smaller denominations huh??

At night, after reaching the hotel, we chit chat with our room mates. Holiday Inn was not wat I expected. For wat I paid, it was totally worth it. An apartment, two rooms, living room and a kitchen! I was impressed. Went over to the other room where the rest were trying to finish up a bottle of vodka cuz cannot bring back to Sg before 48 hours. (Yes, teachers do have fun and loosen up!) Ended up we were talking about how horrible the kids were during the teacher's day celebrations, making noise while we were taking our Teacher's Pledge. Atrocious behaviour. Sigh...

Woke for breakfast and we went to the spa for the body scrub. That went interestingly well. But I must admit that we were paying more for ambience and convenience. It was near and posh. They had separate huts, somesort villas for every two people to have their massage. Very nice. Too bad didn't bring my cam along. Thot nothing much to take pictures of. If you're the type who need quality massage rather than the frills, don't go there. Heard there's better ones at Batam Centre. But if you don't mind the lesser quality but great ambience. Do check it out.

Managed to play pool..(rusty after sometime) with Lydi..at the lounge and had Indonesian satay. Thot it was the warong type but it was very much similar to Sg style. Indonesian satay apparently is in cubes and is eaten with ketchup, which tastes great. It was great to be indoors since it was raining heavily.

All in all, I totally enjoyed my Teacher's Day. Nobody pamper me, I pamper myself lor..=)

Oh yes, I found this on a website.

"If a doctor, lawyer, or dentist had 40 people in his office at one time, all of whom had different needs, and some of whom didn't want to be there and were causing trouble, and the doctor, lawyer, or dentist, without assistance, had to treat them all with professional excellence for nine months, then he might have some conception of the classroom teacher's job. " Donald D. Quinn

For all my teacher friends, Happy Teacher's Day once again. Let us not lose sight of the gift of teaching. We learn, therefore we teach.

Why God created teachers
Author unknown

When God created teachers,He gave us special friends
To help us understand His world
And truly comprehend
The beauty and the wonder
Of everything we see,
And become a better person
With each discovery.

When God created teachers,
He gave us special guides
To show us ways in which to grow
So we can all decide
How to live and how to do
What's right instead of wrong,
To lead us so that we can lead
And learn how to be strong.

Why God created teachers,
In His wisdom and His grace,
Was to help us learn to make our world
A better, wiser place.

life
6:39 PM

Tuesday, July 17, 2007

My Sunday started with me cleaning the house. Dad's requirement; want go out? Clean house first.

Good tactic he has used over the years. Sure works on us. Of course the ocassional bending of the 'law': go back I clean..Haha..Dad has definitely loosened his 'reign' over us over the years. We're all growing up. He went as far as not raising an eye-brow when he heard about my kiddo sister's bf. Wahaha..so not fair..the last time I had a bf, the house was in total pandemonium. I'm not joking.

So anyway, went to watch Harry Potter. I slept a couple of times. It was that bad. Think i spoke too soon when the movie started, told my sister, "I'm so buying the DVD". It must have jinxed the show. I think it was too much talk, too little magic and action. Bleah..But I've always wished Hermione ends up with Harry. Both look so cute tgt. But just a hunch, Ron's little sister could end up with Harry in the last book. Just a hunch, her powers seem quite powerful in the show. Ok enough of my hunches.

So had lunch with sis while waiting for cuzzie to come. Bought this little miniature parfum, that I smelt in Langkawi airport place. Went to my regular shop in Lucky Plaza and asked for discount as usual. The Indian uncle asked his 'boss' and he said ok. Haha..Must be the Indian in me man, brother-sister hood..haha..

Shirin arrived and we went jalan jalan a while. Sat down at the Island Cafe (Island shop's cafe at Level 4 Isetan). Quite a nice place to get away from the crowd in town.

Sister went back after that and Shirin and me headed to Bugis next to change my top from Topshop. She brought me to this nice Ayam Percik makan place opposite Shaw Towers. The chicken was cooked just nice. Real crispy and delicious. But so pedas!! Fuuuh...But you guys should go try it.. Sedap!

Right right, gotta go..selling phone in Chong Pang...

I'm not thin, neither am i fat. But so what?

life
7:06 PM

Monday, July 16, 2007

I've experienced love. True love.

Been through the whole myriad of emotions that came along with it.

The butterflies in your stomach whenever you're meeting him soon, knowing you'll meet him soon. Gushing about how good looking he is, and that indeed, he thinks you look pretty yourself. Just wondering, how in the world you got such a great catch. Knowing he likes you and you like him back.

The end of the honeymoon period. When reality sets in, when you see the real person, his antics, his interests/his passion (other than you of course), his dislikes, etc. Jealousy also comes in during this phase too. When you feel you have a certain right and that he belongs to you. No- other-girl-better-not-dare-to-be-funny-with-him phase. When you learn that there's more to him than the handsome face, such as his amazing brains for eg.

The next phase would probably be when you realise you're really in love with this person. Memorise the way he smiles, laughs and how his hand feels on your hand, etc. How he somehow always never fail to make you smile, make your day. How he fits in your life so good and how his support, comments and feelings mean a whole damn lot to you. At this phase too, that certain amount of possessive-ness continues.

Some months lead into some years, and by now, you've grown accustomed to each other. Grown into each other's company, companionship. You both co-exist. There is no him without you and vice-versa. You attend bbqs, friends' gathering, together. You can say, 'Buy 1 get 1 free'.
In this phase, couples tend to take each other for granted, some get bored with the other, some fail to see how much the other is working to make it work.
In the process too, as they go along the years together, some try to change the other. They forgot, Love is about accepting, not changing. Some fall out of love altogether. Some just feel that they've seen what's there to be seen. That the chemistry is lost, the love died. Some find new loves, (with other people; cheating). For some, the environment changed, changes in their routine and life makes them ponder if the relationship is worth continuing. Or even worse, some just go on with the relationship, not realising that love has changed to companionship/friendship. Some hang on/cling on because they're afraid of being alone. Many things can happen in this phase. In this phase, you either stick on or get out. But for some, the lucky some, this phase means, greater loving, greater understanding and acceptance, moulding themselves into better people made for loving the other. Some decide to get engaged, some to marry, some save to marry. Either way, they grow more in love with each other, committed to make it work.

For the lucky few, after marriage will be a whole different ball game. Don't have much to say about marriage except I'm not ready! Haha!

As for the not so lucky many, whose relationships didn't manage to pull through, you go through another phase called the Getting-over-It phase. This I've been through and I can say a whole darn lot about it.

I'm not afraid to admit that reminders of the past do linger in my heart and mind. Those happy cherished memories. But memories, are only that. Memories. Till now, I could still cry about what I've lost; a great, true, first love. Just being reminded of how much I was loved and how much I loved. I know for sure that crying over the past, does not mean that I'm not rising from the past. But sometimes, we need to cry to be stronger.
I guess we are in a generation when crying is unacceptable. You're only allowed to cry after a certain period, anything after that period, you're done for, a total cry-baby. Crying does not mean we're weak, it means we're vulnerable at that point of time, opening our hearts is one of the most courageous thing a human can do.

To not feel, is inhumane.

At this point of time, I know I'm getting stronger by the day. Time heals all wounds because we grow to learn managing-mechanisms aka coping with heartpain mechanisms (not listening to the song you both use to, not messaging/chatting with him for some time, etc). Yes of course, singlehood makes one lonely. But for each lonely day, I just think to myself that I thank God, it ended. He's bringing me closer to my next love, hopefully, my life partner. I do wish to be in love now, to get that rush of feeling once more, to have someone I can depend on, love again and be loved.

But till the right guy comes along, I'm happy with friends and family. Without them, I don't know how the heck I could have survived last year. I thank God for them and for what has happened, because God loves me. I'm blessed.

To him, I wish him all the best. We both deserve to be happy with other people, whoever that may be. I had truly loved him and I thank him from the bottom of my heart, for shaping me to where I was. Thank him for loving me, supporting me, the way he did. I could have never asked for a better bf. Yes, Mun, like you said, for moments like this, some people wait forever. We didn't last forever but I didn't have to wait forever for moments we shared. Thank you for everything.

life
4:50 PM

Monday, July 09, 2007

And then there were four
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"And among His signs is this, that He created for you mates from among yourselves, that you may dwell in peace and tranquility with them, and He has put love and mercy between your (hearts): Verily in that are signs for those who reflect" (Quran 30:21)

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Attended Evon's wedding last Sunday. Though it was hot, the ceremony was short and definitely sweet. She looked beautiful. Seriously. Gorgeous. Was glad that I was invited to be a part of an important event in her life. Frankly, me and Evon had never been close, we were Primary school mates. She was my head prefect. Didn't get to talk to her much in fact. But well life took a whole different turn. Who would've known, I'd see her in secondary school, go on an overseas trip with her, see her in NIE, rock-climb and also attend her wedding? You never know how life turns out see...

Anyway babe, congrats on your wedding. I wish you much happiness with Danny. May both your lives ahead be filled with laughter, joy and love. You both really look happy with each other. Makes me feel that all hope is not lost yet for me. Haha. Cheers to all happy, committed couples!

Oh yes, I was waiting for the " You may now kiss the bride" part to come in. But it never did. But the couple's cheeky friends were cheering them on to kiss. Hah..."Now married already can kiss on lips". Both of them like shy shy..haha..But they did kiss to please the crowd..

Aha, the pictures...

The gorgeous bride & me

And then there were the four bachelorettes and the happy newly-weds

The kiss that pleased the crowd

Staring into each others' eyes..Awww...

I've said I do!

My ...did Danny's fingers grow?!

Get on with it already!!

Candid shot

Haa...the wedding ring!

life
5:34 PM

Friday, July 06, 2007

Feelings and thoughts can be complex, I'm not excluded.

Most of the time, we're just trying to make sense of what is happening and react to it the best way we know how.

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Planning to catch Dim Sum Ladies in History of Singapore next week! Looks fun and enriching! Haha..since can claim why not just go rite?!

Watched Transformers last Youth day. What a day to revisit memory lane, yeah so I didn't watch Transformers in the past. But this version is waaaaay cooler! Steven Spielberg director mah..Effects and visuals superb! Bumble Bee's car is sooo cool too! I was so going...fwah...Woah all the way..Haha..

The world's favourite magic boy's back with the latest Harry Potter movie! Looks real dark and cool...Definitely catching that one for sure! There's also a Harry Potter lok-alike contest, should send in my sister! Wahaha..So many pple commented already.

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Dozing off already on my keyboard. Tomorrow another long day at work, meetings then head home, clean my room after the aircon people fixed the new one up, head to Lil India for Naan with my mates! Can't imagine working 8-5pm! I'll prob just die after a month!

life
12:11 AM

Tuesday, June 26, 2007

Here's the link to my recent photos for Langkawi holiday which was on last 2 weeks.

http://flickr.com/photos/fizah

It was a very budget holiday but I've enjoyed it the most! Travelling on Air-Asia was really interesting..Haha..even cute budget menus on flight..

Thank you Maz for the hotel rates!

life
9:03 PM

I forgot my home keys just now and had to wait for my mum to end work to get home.

So there i was cop-ing a seat in Macs alone, marking. Needed a break and took a pic of my red pen with my new hp. Wahaha..it has macro function..dun pray-pray ah..So here's the pic. Not bad eh?

Behold the power of the red pen! It can build/break students' esteem.
So teachers be careful of what you write with the oh-so-powerful red pen.

life
8:46 PM

Find this song catchy and meaningful,
for everyone who needs to feel "safe".

You are fine You are sweet
But I'm still a bit naive with my heart
When you're close I don't breathe
I can't find the words to speak
I feel sparks
But I don't want to be into you
If you're not looking for true love
No I don't wanna start seein' you
If I can't be your only one

So tell me when it's not alright
When it's not OK
Will you try to make me feel better?
Will you say alright? (say alright)
Will you say OK? (Say OK)
Will you stick with me through whatever?
Or run away(Say that it's gonna be alright. That it's gonna be OK)
Say OK.

When you call I don't know if I should pick up the phone every time
I'm not like all my friends who keep calling up the boys, I'm so shy
But I don't want to be into you
If you don't treat me the right way
See I can only start seeing you
If you can make my heart feel safe (feel safe)

So tell me when it's not alright
When it's not OK
Will you try to make me feel better?
Will you say alright? (say alright)
Will you say OK? (Say OK)
Will you stick with me through whatever?
Or run away(Say that it's gonna be alright. That it's gonna be OK)
Say OK.

Let me know if it's gonna be you
Boy, you've got some things to prove
Let me know that you'll keep me safe
I don't want you to run away so
Let me know that you'll call on time
Let me know that you'll help me shine
Will you wipe my tears away
Will you hold me close and say

So tell me when it's not alright
When it's not OK
Will you try to make me feel better?
Will you say alright? (say alright)
Will you say OK? (Say OK)
Will you stick with me through whatever?
Or run away(Say that it's gonna be alright. That it's gonna be OK)
Say OK.

life
8:30 PM

Monday, June 25, 2007

Gals,

do you have BFF? The group of friends that you can turn to no matter what mood you're in, good/bad, share watever gossip you have with no fear they'd use that against you, pour your heart out to and etc?

Well, like most girls, I have a set of BFF as well. It was only recently that I felt my set of BFF pretty much have collapsed. It hit me pretty hard during my BD especially.

I guess now, things are mending. You could say I've pretty much done some damage to a friendship. Poked my head into things that was not in my prerogative to say and you could say, 'Oops I did it again!'.

To elaborate better, this particular friendship has always been a love-hate one. Don't ask me why. It has always been that way. At this point in time, I just feel that when the friendship has been repeatedly been damaged, things won't ever be the same again. Not that I'm not trying. I guess I've come to a point when I'm just tired of maintaining it.

Another friendship is a little one-sided you can say. Effort to meet up and stay in contact has mostly been on the shoulders of one party. After sometime, I tire of arranging to go out, etc.

I wished I was more upbeat about these friendships but it takes two hands to clap. Maybe I'm just tired and disappointed.

Adios amigos

Everyone disappoints you at some point in your life, make sure you don't disappoint yourself.

life
9:57 PM