Sunday, February 11, 2007
Gonna be sharing something personal here:
So I just woke up.Note the timing of the post. It's 3 am now. Anyway I dreamt i was engaged to a public figure in Singapore. I didn't see my fiance until the day of engagement. So throughout the whole thing i was thinking, this is so wrong, so wrong..but i couldnt get out of it. And ridiculously the guy was 17! not yet earning..not good looking..my worst nightmare! So the whole ceremony went on without them hearing my silent screams..So it was a very traidtional engagement. Curtains drawn to prevent my fiance from seeing me, i had to eat a little of the rice to signify some acceptance or watever the hell it meant..Ok people please do not laugh. I woke up freaking breathless after all this.This is not the end of it..So throughout the whole ceremony there were pple with computers and headphones stuck to their ears..Then I was at this table receiving flowers from guests and relatives of my fiance..Apparently some of my relatives caused a commotion and left..Then i was writing on this card, my worst nightmare..Then i realised that i had woken up in the dream, and figuring it out that its all real..not a nightmare! So then i got a call from my friend, congratulating me. I asked her how she knew. She said so her bf's friend was going through the whole friendster list and i was on it and apparently there was a live casting of my whole engagement ceremony on NIE portal! Ridiculous! Haha..I know some of u may be rolling on the floor with this..I know..I'm cringing myself!Next, I felt darn pressured, people were staring at me, my actions..and I wanted out bad..Was wondering how the rest of my life would be. Then couldnt even click with my fiance...i felt a little like japanese royalty..i dunno why..everyone has to be perfectly made up..pretty all the time..etc..So i called a friend and she said, well give it a shot, at least she did give it 3 dates before wanting out from this other guy she as out with. And even then there was no public pressure to 'perform'..no puns intended..=)The whole story ends with me waking up thoroughly disturbed, questioning if i was engaged, and breathless..Smsed a friend and she comforted me and ends with....to update her if there are any continual episodes...Some friend! That's positively my worst nightmare! Gotta wash my legs now...Feeling ZZzzz...Night all..may nightmares not haunt me this time round...
life
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